I’ve been thinking a lot today about my quest to change my
life with red lipstick.
I’ve started channelling my 50’s housewife by eating better,
and cooking more. I’ve been a little less lax with the housework and I’ve
started taking more pride in my home. I’ve also started taking more pride in my
appearance. Wearing red lipstick means I have to dress to suit it; it makes me
get my nails done and wear flattering clothing and perfume.
I suppose the biggest thing is red lipstick means I can’t
blend in - I’m constantly drawing attention to myself whether it’s walking the
dog, going to the doctors or heading off on a night out.
I know that some people may think I look strange, or
over-dressed, but for the first time in my life I’m training myself not to
care. I don’t know if this is something that happens to everyone but ever since
I can remember I’ve always had “that voice” in my head. The one that tells me
how big I look every time I put on weight, how over-dressed I look when I dress
up, how much of an idiot I’m making of myself every time I put myself out
there.
If pushed I could probably tell you where these voices
originate, but that’s not important anymore. I could spend hours raking through
all the reasons why but that’s something I am determined to move past. Quite
simply, everything that happened previously doesn’t matter anymore because the
only way to change is just to do it. Focusing on the past means you can’t move
forwards and that is what I’m so desperate to do right now.
By wearing red lipstick I am making a statement. I am making
myself impossible to ignore and dealing with everything that comes with that.
So once I’ve put myself out there I might as well go the
whole hog...
So today I signed up for Burlesque classes... and signed up
to volunteer at a local greyhound sanctuary... and phoned up my local volunteer
coordinator to see about volunteering in a couple of children’s centres.
And I’m not stopping there either – oh no.
Watch out world. Mrs Player’s on her way....
And she’s in red lippy.
Mrs P
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go girl. lynnex
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